Don't ask permission, just ask forgiveness....

FAIR WARNING: This blog will quite possibly be confusing for some, but entirely enlightening for others; that's why they have a Comments section *hint* ......

I'm a thinker. A deep thinker. An overthinker, even. I'm very rarely the person who just acts, who just. DOES. Every word uttered from my mouth, every action i take, is calculated, risk and rewards are both accounted for before anything gets said or done when it comes to Myron. This attitude or methodology of mine has served me well over the years, whether in academics or athletics. even socially. It pays to think about the shit you say before you say it. Or think before you act. Led to a pretty good GPA in HS. Also made me a good many friends and junior high/high school "relationships", because i was able to NOT offend people before they realized how much they actually liked me. For the most part, all of those things still apply to this day.

But then came along that L-word, and that ADULT R-word.

Love. Relationships. ugh.

Rational logical thoughts belong NOWHERE near those things usually. Love is a gamble ON TOP of a gamble. In all honesty, in a relationship with another person, you're NEVER REALLY sure about ANYTHING. (jaded, Myron, jaded....... i know). But there are no certainties in life besides death, so it can only apply to anything that happens in life, correct? And when you factor in that you are being considerate of ANOTHER'S thoughts and feelings, where can you really find headspace to be 100% on ANYTHING you don't know or feel on your own?

Thinking too much usually leaves you on the outside looking in when it comes to such things as that L-word and that R-word. You're no longer actually thinking for yourself, you're basically thinking and acting for two, so it becomes "selfish" to think about what you'll do or say instead of just doing or saying it and letting the chips fall where they may.

As Drake (yeah, Drake, damn you, i enjoy his music) says on his song "The Calm," "don't ask permission, just ask forgiveness".......

DO.... and THEN deal with the consequences. Guess it should be my new way of thinking, but i'll think of doing it before i can fully commit to doing it.

Repetition....

Repetition. You keep doing the same thing, you get the same results. Gameplan gotta change, starting ASAP. That is all -fin-

Instincts....and Inevitability....

Instincts. trust them. they are usually an incarnation of your brain telling u ur heart is fucking dumb and not to listen to it. it's usually right. every now and again, you slip up, and you override them, ignore them, say they're wrong..... they're not. they are just usually smarter than you for the time being. until finally...... they show you that you were wrong, they were right. yet again. trust them. YOU will very rarely lead YOU wrong.

The term tragic inevitability is used mostly in literature. it's when you KNOW something is gonna happen that you DON'T want to happen, but again, you KNOW it's gonna happen, and all you can do is. wait. the sands sift through to the bottom of that hourglass, the seconds tick off that clock. you know its coming. brace yourself. its like when you've had all of your pieces eliminated except the King, and the opponent with the unseen hands. he chases you. your move. check. your move. check. retreat. its pointless. back into a corner and hope the impact doesn't take you through the wall.

instincts.......... and inevitability. TRAGIC inevitability.